So here I am blogging....again! Once upon a time I had a blog....a family blog and....well, I abandoned it! Opps:) Lets just say my heart wasn't in it (that sounds bad considering it was a blog about my family!)...probably not the best choices of words, but eh, this blog is about honesty so there it is!
The last few weeks I've debated about blogging again. Not necessarily to share with people, rather for me to process a lot of my feelings and thoughts. Particularity my thoughts on where and what God is opening my heart to.
So where is God leading me??? Well I don't really know! And thats OK. I don't need to know...right now I just want my heart to be open to HIM...open to HIM everyday!
Sounda alittle vague, huh? Here's the thing....my heart has been open to God for a long time, but this is the 1st time that I'm letting HIM lead me. I'm letting go of what feels comfortable and secure. I'm openly saying "Lord use ME"!
And I know thats a BOLD statement. Because lets face it....I'll never live up to it! I know I'll fail....probably 99.9% of the time. I know I'll be a walking contradiction. I know I'll hesitate and question HIM. And somewhere in the middle of that, I know God still loves me.
So thats where I'm at. Today feels like I'm sprinting...I'm sprinting for the finish line for a race that has barely begun. I should really S.L.O.W. down....cause THIS is going to be a marathon.
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